Out of Control

James 4:14 "Yet you do not know what your life will be like tomorrow. You are just a vapor that appears for a little while and then vanishes away."

Control. Control is that word that so many of us struggle with. I just need to be in control, control of my life, finances, marriage, job, parenting, health, & boy that is a lot of pressure to put on one person who actually isn’t truly in control of any of those things. I have found myself trying to hold all the pieces of my fragmented life together and my friend can I tell you it is exhausting. I constantly go back to the scripture in James that ask the question, do you not know what your life will be like tomorrow. Well actually I can have a plan for my day but really my life can go many different ways tomorrow. So yes have a plan but it's the being okay when God interrupts your plans. That is where I can constantly struggle with I have a plan to control my day and then something happens that isn’t in my plan, sick kid, car accident, fight with a spouse, a boss, a friend, an unexpected bill. It’s when those things come in that can throw my day completely off and I lose my joy and my peace. Then I have to fight really hard to get them back as they are truly priceless in my life. I have to remind myself in those moments whether good or bad the second part of that verse, you are a vapor that appears for a little while then vanishes away. It is such a good reminder that I am only here for a period of time in history and what kind of impact am I making on others, is what I will be known for. My prayer is that they would have seen Jesus more in me, but really they only will when I let Him control my moments, my day and my life.